i want..

morgan was asking for wants on twitter:

and at first i said “@morganirene twitter doesn’t have enough characters for all of the things I want..”

then after therapy i started thinking that i maybe need to be a little selfish and want some things for myself and i decided to give it another shot.

“I want: to be put first, jeans that don’t fall down, a stressfree living situation, people to lower their expectations of me. also: a birthday redo, a perfect fall day in the city w/my loves, my nikon, my apartment to clean itself, & a wormless pup.”

but i also want:

• to get stable enough to be ok working full time
• to get a job i like, full time
• or even two jobs..
• a laptop
• to go back to school for sign language
• love with no bullshit.
• more orgasms
• m to quit with the pills
• people to stop backstabbing at my jobs
• my dog to stop BARKING everytime i leave the room and his separation anxiety as well
• to be truly happy.. i want to feel lighter and positive and repaired.
• to live in the city because i feel at home there.
• sex, sex, holy hell i’d love some sex.
• my sister to finally take responsibility for her life
• some support
• to learn how to say no more often
• people to stop taking advantage of me
• therapy to work
• a full night’s sleep.. it makes me giddy to think of what could happen if i’d remember what it was like to feel rested.
• to go out of town once a month [even if it's to the city.. just away from here.]

maybe visualizing it will help me get there..